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I just want to humbley welcome and thank all of those that take the time to read what I write..Idon't have a particular theme at any given time...just write what I feel compelled to write at the time...Please if you read my blogs ..leave a comment..I would love to know what you think...thanks again and enjoy the journey....

Monday, June 17, 2013

In response to someone who had father troubles..MY MOM

 there is not only physical abuse but also mental mother was never close to me..I being her only daughter tried until her death 2 years ago to have a relationship..I took it personally at one time but she didn't have a relationship with my two brothers either..she divorced our father for another man and it seems she divorced us too..I had 4 children that never got to know her..oh they saw her when we all showed up at her mothers (who was like a mother to me).but she never had a conversation with my kids or my brothers kids..we all wondered why she hated us so much.for years we were tormented with this..until we decided we had to go on and just be family ourselves..I would send her letters with pictures of my grandchildren and she always sent a 3 line thank you note to me..said she loved the pictures..I would send her cards and gifts every birthday ,mothers day and Christmas and always getting a thank you letter back.nothing else..her husband passed and it got worse....when I was 56 I wrote and told her we were both elderly now..didnt she thing we should do lunch and get to know each other before it was too late..she said let's keep it this way..once I was an empty nester I would wake up in the middle of the night and find myself crying for her..doesn't matter how old you get long for your mother..she is gone now ..and somehow I am at peace..I no longer dwell on seeing her because I know I can't I guess..she dies the way she lived..alone.,.I can't get into the details ,,its sad...I felt bad that I didn't grieve maybe like I should have..but I realized that she was gone from me 40 years ago...I had done all my grieving all those years..I was grieved out..but she taught me one thing without even knowing NOT to be..we never had lunch together ..never went shopping together..I make it a point to do these things with my children while they were growing up and still to this day....sorry didn't mean to hijack this post..just got me going...Kevin I am so happy you are the man you are..and I too am a good person and God Bless my mom.wherever she is

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