HOW COULD THIS BE??

So I spent 30 something days at my daughters 20 minutes away and then when I finally come home I bring her 2 children ..Dallas and Dellaney...I am so hooked with being with them that when they leave there is such an emptiness...I believe this is why I spend so long of a time at her place...just nothing in this ole house for me anymore...I've outgrown it..I've raised my kids in what at the time was a mixed neighborhood...since 3 out of 4 of them are mixed...now its just me and Rob left and we are the minority now and really don't fit in anymore...I mean no one causes trouble with us or anything...after 28 years in one place you kind of become a "fixture"...But my health warrants that I be on one floor...where I can get to the kitchen and do for myself...right now I'm dependent on Bobby and I really don't like that...thinking of selling this house and finding something ....gotta do a lot of cleaning up my credit though...gotta make some changes...too old to live the rest of my days like this and still young enough to want changes...