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Welcome to the stories of my life...

I just want to humbley welcome and thank all of those that take the time to read what I write..Idon't have a particular theme at any given time...just write what I feel compelled to write at the time...Please if you read my blogs ..leave a comment..I would love to know what you think...thanks again and enjoy the journey....

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

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this was my post to the WOE nightly thread on Bonanza.. the question or theme for the evening was If you could turn back time ..what would you change or do different...

Hi Deb…I have to think about this..at first when I read the topic the first thing that came to my mind was that I could turn back time to where my grandmother fell in the bathroom…I wish I could turn back the time and not let that happen..that fall ultimately took her life 13 days later…exactly one week after her 90th birthday..I had spoken to her on the phone before the accident and we talked about her getting ready to turn 90 and that I had just turned 50…she was ever so grateful to have lived to see her oldest grandchild be 50..she said a lot of grandmothers dont get that..but she said she wanted to stick around awhile to see what happens..she was not ready to go…then the fall

my grandmother was my superstar…she loved me like no one else on earth…I miss her terribly..its been 8 years…she was so healthy..went to the doctors once a year for a physical..whatever the doctor told her to do…she did…she always like a little scoop of Breyers Vanilla ice cream after dinner..but her cholesterol was up and the doctor told her to cut back and she did…she was so disciplined..I have none of that..her daughter is my mother and my mother and I have always had a strained relationship…I havent seen my mother since my grandmothers funeral 8 years ago…didnt mean to be a bummer here..and its not meant to be…just brought back some great memories.

The update on this story is that my mother has since passed away..we never did get to have that lunch I thought we should have had in our older years..my mother just wanted to be left alone..and without going into detail (that will be another story later when I get the courage to write it) she ultimately died alone..its a sad story and will take everything in me to write it..but I will one day write it.. but for now I go on with my life and be the best mother and grandmother that I can be ..leaving a legacy of love in spite of my relationship with my mother..I had my grandmother and my father ..I was my fathers princess..and he encouraged me in everything I did..I lost him when he was just 60 years old..the age I will be in 6 weeks..way too soon and I miss them both immensely..but am comforted in knowing they are both watching over me and my family..and that one day I will see them again..how happy that will be..I hope its not for at least another 40 years..

7 comments:

  1. Your story is not a bummer. I really enjoyed it. Grandmother's are the best. I never got to meet my dad's mom. She passed away before I was born, but I'm named after her. My mom's mom is still alive and I love her more than she will know. Thanks for sharing your story!

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  2. You always write the most touching stories. I enjoy reading your blog so much. Brings back so many memories of my own life (the good and the bad). Thank you for letting us get a peak at your life!

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  3. When I wrote many of my stories it was just to compile memories while I still had one..we never know what will happen ..I always said I would love to write a book..friends that know the relationship between me and my mom said I should..one day maybe..I never knew they would be read..but some read them even without or networking..but I am now glad to share them and get feedback..thanks you guys for all the good reviews and feedback..love and hugs

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  4. Nice to see stories about someone who loves their grandmother. I think of mine often.

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  5. Wow, such an open sharing of your life.

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  6. You are a inspiration dear lady.

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